*now Im going to be honest Im kinda pissed off about this, and someone. but here goes (if you have my facebook, its on there too under my notes)*

Alright, so apparently, as all the students of Butler Tech learned today there where 3 students that have reported of "thinking of suicide" or have attempted.

Now let me say now, before I go on, that Suicide is bad. Its an unfortunate happening that sneak into peoples minds and takes over and most of the time, when they ether A. get "annoying" with their promises, or B. Don't talk about them at all people ignore it or just don't know. I find it to be a very sad thing to happen to our students, and well people in general.

See, I have problems like everyone else does, emotionally and (more than likely) mentally. Ive been through a lot than most, and less than others. I try not to dread on what I have survived, but I live with the fact that I had to do so. I usually only bring it up in arguments, or trying to show someone they are not the only one's dealing with shit in their lives.

And, Its Senior Year, the less and most "exciting" year of high school. Theres a lot of Pressure involved, I know, I'm seriously under a lot of it myself.

Finally to what I was getting at, you see, I let you read what I seriously think of suicide, and what has been known to me as Senior Year and how it is huge, and intimidating.

I do however, have something to say, not of defense.

I find suicide Cowardly
I find it stupid
I find it selfish
I believe this, because, Ive known people who have tried and failed (thank God) at doing so. I find their personality to be more than selfish, sometimes talkative (usually on the subject on their family sucks, how life sucks, and how its just so "hard".) In life with people, if its not someone passing away, its a break up. If its not being "loved" (and ignoring friends or just not listening to them), its being hated.

Now, with these people, Ive really tried to build up self esteem, Ive tried giving opinions on situations, and most of the time they don't want to try, listen, or get into a new enviroment. And when I had enough, I mean I have my own being to worry about too and my own issues after all, I DO NOT give up on them, but when I do "go" its usually a sign of giving up on theirselves.

Ive told people about it too, as they say about suicide, you should tell a teacher. And "oddly" enough they usually don't do much.

In the end, if you ask me. I think people have to learn that life isn't as bad as it seems or they are making it harder on themselves and or others. You have to take responsibility for yourself at some point, and I started young...I grew up at my Grandmother's with her, my uncle, and my mother who worked and still works hard to keep what ever we have a float...and I thank her (even though, I think Im the adult sometimes.) I used to think life was really bad, believe it or not, then I put thought into it. SERIOUS thought. and asked myself....

Do I want to feel sad forever?
You create your own happiness, the only thing you really have to do is take it.